I just realised how sad my chances are for getting h3. Achievements? Like SYF Gold? Who the hell cares when you are talking about chemistry. You can't even harvest the Gold from syf to process or study it or whatever. And they will only give these kind of cool shiz to those (in the words of Arthas) "Zai" people who probably wins robotics competitions and stuff. The good will only get better, all the presidents scholarships will be given to people who Ace (As) their 11, 12 credits. My dismal 10 is beyond hope. How do we prove we're awesome too, when they don't give us a chance to? I'm a bit sick of trying. I think I am destined to be mediocre.

I can't get into TWO Olympiads like joey, who studies a bit and tops the level for bio, or gets 99% for 99% of tests, Neither am I a Zhewen who studies for ONE week and produces AABB and goes for Two Olympiads like joey. Or like CT who entered the exam hall without his lit text and still got a respectable D for Zero amount of studying. Maybe it's not worth trying anymore. It's so hard trying to prove myself.

Olympiad? I think I'm gonna lose to all those people. H3? These people have achievement lists longer than my entire form I swear.

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I am so broke :( I need money for my ogl form, Olympiad notes, buy chem notes, pay up for PW, and I'm going out for dinner tomorrow.

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My knee hurts from walking into the biggest harp in the harp room (fml seriously).

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I haven't been eating much at all the past few days. I can't seem to stomach anything, and I'm on the verge of being anorexic. And everything is my fault fml ttm.