Mood: Tired
Music: Avenged Sevenfold - Dear god
God has not forsaken you. He's there if you cry out to him. You have no idea how much I care for you, but seeing as I honestly don't mean anything to you, I don't think I have a right to show that I care. But if you do read this, you know who you are, and know that I care, and I'm still sorry for everything that happened on tuesday. I wish I could know what you are thinking, please tell me directly because I hate the way we are (not) communicating now.
Today half my class skipped GP, and I studied with Han Lin/Hanz/Lin Lin/Xiao Lin/ Han Han/ HENRY for a while before knocking out for a while and then going for CF.
"Oh oh guys, I have a new name! It's called Rachel!"
(Jean) "Oh wow that's nice. Since when did you have it?"
"Since last night."
(Jean) "Oh why do you have that name now?"
"Because I like it."
(Jean) "Because you like it. Nice..."
For all that's happened this week, I really don't know what to say.
Went for some SIM seminar, and left feeling real stupid. I don't even know why I'm there. I've been mediocre my whole life. This is kinda like a 'wow' thing to me, let's see how long I hold out.
Let's all starve. I'm on a downward spiral, do you care?
