Mood: Tired :O Music: The Ataris - The Saddest Song (Acoustic)
Okay I so totally want to blog about Band[Age] BUT BUT BUT I realised my video is too huge to be uploaded onto youtube and I haven't uploaded all my pictures! SO, it means I'll be the most outdated person and blog it like, Tuesday since tomorrow I won't be free. Haha.
BUT CONGRATULATIONS TO REDEEMING THE RIOT! (Esp Nathan Not-so-KHOO) I'm so proud of you guys! :) :D :) :D
NATHAN!
Anyway in short, it was aweeeeseome beyond awesome. Just that, after all those highs, when you come down, I don't know if it's just me or what, but I'll be even more down than I was before. Which resulted in insomnia and disturbing a friend (whoops I'm so sorry) and reading about other people's lives (fiction, no less) so i would be so into the story and not think about my own pathetic life.
I hate crying myself to sleep. I haven't done that in a long while. And it doesn't feel nice. I keep thinking of all the whatifs.
What if we were still together, would I have been with my friends? Or with yours? You had no idea how hard it was for me to look at your friends and not think of you, or what could have been, would have been. I miss your voice, your company, your embrace. I miss being with you, I miss the past. But you know what's the worst part? That I know we can never get that back again, even if we tried. And I hate myself for being so weak, for wanting you so much. I don't hate you for leaving, I hate you for not coming back. And I hate the way that no matter what you do to me, I can't hate you.
Wait Outside
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