"i'd be lying if I told you, losing you was something I could handle"

Why did you lie? I don't know what to believe in anymore.

Skipped dinner today, and tomorrow I'm gonna fast.

Lightning. Bright for that moment, fleeting, and when it's gone, everything else appears darker than the way it appeared before. Dangerous, but oh, how amazing to watch. It's like sometimes when your life is going so much downhill and then you think your life is such a joke and you start laughing and laughing and you don't even know why and then you laugh until tears roll down your face and so what now? Are you laughing or crying now? And when we empty all our tears, are we emptier than before? And you sit down, you're so exhausted and you are on the floor, comatose, and alone. But how? Are you going to do anything about your life? Fight your way back up to normalcy, or do you just want a downward spiral, and see how far you have to go before you hit rock bottom?

For me, I'm going to try option two. Just watch me.