Today I had a very lazy but nice Friday morning.
Went to swim with Jo-Ann at the Pioneer pool, I like going there even though it's so obscure but because it's obscure it's not that crowded, and the toilets are also clean! Heh heh. After showering we went to my place to chill; we were supposed to watch Mean Girls after our htht, but halfway while watching the movie, my sister loaded Running Man on her laptop so we just watched it over our lunch. Halfway though, she fell asleep. Hehe. But it's okay :)
After she slept she went up to try on a few outfits for Nick's grad parade, but she got too lazy and decided to smarten her outfit by...tucking in her shirt HAHAHAH. To her defence she did look a bit better :) hehe.
My night was really terrible so i don't really want to talk about it, but Im glad I got to spend some time with Jo today. When school reopens I guess I will no longer have as much time to meet her. But that's okay, I know she still loves me. And I do, too. :)
Mood: Annoyed Music: Christina Perri - A thousand Years
I know the music right now currently does not suit my mood, but that's only because it was a random youtube link and once I start playing this song I can't stop. Hah. Just one of my weaknesses. That's not the point.
The point is this. How can someone be so annoying?? I mean, you know I care for you in more ways than one, and yet you still do this to me. Maybe because you do know. What can I say. I tell you a simple thing like how I'm bummed I stay so far away from school. Instead of being encouraging like "it's okay, you can do it, it's only for a while more" or "just bear with it it'll be over before you know it" you come and tell me shit like "well you chose it so just live with it" I MEAN DOES IT HURT YOU TO BE MORE ENCOURAGING? Okay forget it. I know you're gonna say if I wanna hear what I wanna hear I might as well just talk to Siri. You study business, I'm sure you know communications. I'm sure you know about empathy, or at the very least, sympathy. Yet. You still show me none. When I needed it the most. Why? I guess those skills you learn only apply to your clients? Wow.
Sometimes I don't even know why I'm holding on. For what? It will end up to nothing in the end. I know it will end, eventually. I just don't want that day to come. Meanwhile, I'll be readying myself. Fight? No, it's time to learn to let go.
I update this blog really sporadically, every time I feel like I should say something about my life, there is so much to update I just get overwhelmed. Lol. Do I update about the major events? School? Friends? Or do I update about the tiny significant events that pepper my calendar? Whatever that is, I guess I'm going to try to make a more concerted effort to update more regularly so I will have stories to tell my grandchildren if I have them and if my blog still exists lol.
I guess I shall just start of with the things I'm doing in my life.
School.
It's year two now, I'm currently having my term break. It really is just a break from school, but not from school work. Nevertheless, I'm glad for having this break, it's much needed, so I can not drown and attempt to swim my way back to shore.
Driving.
Under the forceful words of my mother, I'm finally learning driving. I don't know whether I suck at driving, that's why I hate it, or that I hate driving and that's why I suck. Whatever the reason, I SUCK OK I CAN'T TAKE DRIVING EVERY LESSON IS A FUCKING PAIN IN THE NECK I KEEP THINKING I CAN DO IT BUT IN THE END NO I CAN'T DO IT. Keep getting scolded by the instructor I cannot brake properly cannot accelerate properly cannot turn left properly cannot turn right properly SIGH. Okay I am getting to emotional. Must stop already.
Currently taking a break from handbells, but I do wish to go back. I keep saying I cannot commit, but the truth is I always come home a happier person after each session. And I've made good friends there. It's like a small family, I like it there very much indeed. :)
Friends.
I've come to realise that not all friendships can be kept or maintained at the level/intensity they once were at its peak. Right now I guess I'm just trying to maintain and build quality (not quantitative) relationships with the people around me. Namely, JingJie, Jo, Pamela, Qing... Okay that is about it haha maybe I need to build more relationships. I do miss my best friends though. Daniel, Cheryl, Seeyue. I wonder how they are doing.
And I'll end here for tonight, there is just so much I want to say, but not enough words.
Wait Outside
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