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Monday, November 16, 2009

I hope I don't die.

Mood: Stressed like anything
Music: -

I'm so freaking stressed omg. Seriously. Carolling, harp, maniac, olympiad?! I'm not made for all these stuff. Too many committments is driving me nuts. I don't even have time for anything else.

Bowling today was quite fun, but now I'm oh so broke. Whatever man.
Anyway I'll be out for quite a while, back to back camps and stuff, so I won't be back till a week later. Take care everyone!

@ 23:08

Saturday, November 07, 2009

I beg you so much

Mood: Pleading
Music: Through The Trees

Please please please, I beg of you, don't rewind our friendship to May and June. I cannot take this anymore. I swear, ten times over, your friendship is worth infinitely more times than him. If you think I betrayed your trust, I didn't. I didn't tell him, I didn't say anything about you. If giving him up and everything he and I stood for means I would have you back as one of my best friends, you know I would do it, at the drop of a hat. I don't think I've wanted to save a friendship this badly, but this time, I'm desperate. I cannot lose you.

PLEASE BRING US BACK TO OUR HAPPY MOMENTS, YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH YOU MEAN TO ME.

Amidst all these shit going on in my life, there's still some aspects of nice-ness in my life. For example, after over sleeping yesterday, I met up with Asriel for some shopping, and then dinner with my Fish and Co Bros For Life gang and froze to death at Starbucks.

I don't have any mood to blog. I just want my friend back.

@ 17:14

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

Backwards

Mood: -
Music: Through The Trees

"i'd be lying if I told you, losing you was something I could handle"

Why did you lie? I don't know what to believe in anymore.

Skipped dinner today, and tomorrow I'm gonna fast.

Lightning. Bright for that moment, fleeting, and when it's gone, everything else appears darker than the way it appeared before. Dangerous, but oh, how amazing to watch. It's like sometimes when your life is going so much downhill and then you think your life is such a joke and you start laughing and laughing and you don't even know why and then you laugh until tears roll down your face and so what now? Are you laughing or crying now? And when we empty all our tears, are we emptier than before? And you sit down, you're so exhausted and you are on the floor, comatose, and alone. But how? Are you going to do anything about your life? Fight your way back up to normalcy, or do you just want a downward spiral, and see how far you have to go before you hit rock bottom?

For me, I'm going to try option two. Just watch me.

@ 21:56

Monday, November 02, 2009

Burn, Burn

Where do we stand,

Now that we've burned all the bridges that we've built?

And how do we move (on),

Now that our lives and friendship are as empty as our promises to each other?

But most importantly,

Do you even care?

Chinese was a sad day. Hitched a ride from my new neighbour, and let my A slip by like that. Went out with The New Neighbour and another friend for lunch because we didn't wanna go home. (Bros and hoes for life man!) And we watched Jennifer's Body omggg it sucked really badly, we were all cringing and crying out "When is this movie going to end" hahaha. So if you read this, don't watch it. Hah.

I'll set myself on fire, because there is nothing left to burn.

@ 18:14

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